I

have a lot of hang-ups about not feeling good enough for anyone.

And I have a lot of reasons for that, and I don't want to get into all of them tonight...

but really, I'd just like to feel like I'm not always going to come second to someone else in every single person's life.

I get this mindset where x is prettier than me and y is thinner and z is taller and this is that and that is this and I just can't shake it tonight for some reason.

I just want everyone to stop talking about me when I'm not around. I'm not a child. I can take care of myself. I've done it for almost 20 years, I can do it until I can't.