I

have a lot of hang-ups about not feeling good enough for anyone.

And I have a lot of reasons for that, and I don't want to get into all of them tonight...

but really, I'd just like to feel like I'm not always going to come second to someone else in every single person's life.

I get this mindset where x is prettier than me and y is thinner and z is taller and this is that and that is this and I just can't shake it tonight for some reason.

I just want everyone to stop talking about me when I'm not around. I'm not a child. I can take care of myself. I've done it for almost 20 years, I can do it until I can't.

so...

Five more days until my one-year mark. I could not be more proud of myself. Literally.

GREEKFEST THIS WEEKEND!!!! (Who is going to go with me? hehehe!)

Also, new Big Bang!! :D :D :D

But first, I have to get through my Religious Studies and Physics tests...Wish me luck! I will need it...especially for Physics. ):

Also, I have so many insane things happening in my life and I am so happy and I just do not even know where to begin. (:

I think all the right people walked into and out of my life right when they needed to.

And I just can't wait to see what happens next!

Have I ever told you all how much I love football?

(the band! From my cellphone...hahaha)

It's a lot.

I went to the game yesterday and watched my Vols beat the Cincinnati Bearcats 45-23.

It was a good game! I just wish our defense...well, nevermind. I won't get into that. (;

Today is filled with mostly Chemistry and studying for my Ecology test, and probably also reading for Physics.

ALSO, my friend who actually HAD a camera yesterday hasn't put up pictures yet, so have some cell phone pictures:

Me and Al! Haha, I kept cutting our heads off...


Me and Paloma! Excuse my raccoon-y eyes and my very messy messybun haha. (:


Then Alex and I got a pretty good picture, but all the pictures of me with everyone else (that isn't just of faces!) are not on my phone. ):


Me and Dennis!

And I super love this picture of me and Paloma! haha. (:

BUT I saved the best for last:

Dennis and Paloma! Aren't they precious!?
They're basically my favorite people ever. hahaha. (Paloma, I hope you read this!)
And I really like this picture, ahhaa. Who knew my cell phone could do that!

(Also, there were more people there than this! We also had 4 other people sitting with us, and then these two other people came over that knew the girlfriend of one of my friends. Which was actually kind of awkward, but not as bad as I made it in my head, haha.)
The game was actually a lot lot lot of fun. I can't wait for the next game! :D

Love you all!
-Jes.

My life is insane.

Kaleb and I broke up about 2 weeks ago.
Three years, down the drain, as if it were nothing.

But once again, I picked up the pieces and moved on with my life.

"Not fare well, but fare forward."

I'm happier. Free-er. Freer. (Is that a word?)

It makes me sick to think about what he's doing sometimes...

But really, I was honest, and I'm a happier and better me than I have been in a long, long time.

I'll update you all more later. (:

Everything happens for a reason.

And this is all a part of a plan that I'm just too little to see right now.

I love you all.
Fare forward,
Jessica.