Today's been rough.

I made it through our 30-hour famine. My body is a little mad at me (my blood sugar is pretty low, and I feel gross because of my iron being weird), but I did it, and I'm so happy I was able to do so.

But tonight, I had a really serious talk during our dinner (breaking our fast!). I talked about some things that I wasn't really planning on talking about, and during our talk, she pointed something out that really got me thinking.

What she said has kind of turned into my question for the night: Do you ever sit and think "These struggles I'm going through today will help me glorify God tomorrow." ? I don't. I know I don't. I am the worst person about being like "why me?" because sometimes I feel so overwhelmed by the things that happen. I know, in hindsight, I'll tell my story and be able to see the way God led me through that problem, the way He didn't throw anything at me I couldn't handle. But in the moment, sometimes anyway, I just want to be like, "Why is something else happening?" I haven't done that lately, and I'm really happy that I haven't.

But she made a good point. The struggles I've gone through have helped me glorify God. When I tell someone something I've gone through and then show them the way that God moved in my life and worked in my life, and that He is the only reason I am where I am right now, in my happy state, ready to handle the next challenge...it's seriously the best feeling, because I feel like it sometimes makes people want to know God like I know God. I like being that person that, when people hear my story, they go, "How can you still be positive? How can you thank God for that? How can you want more trials?" (I've heard it before [several times]! I'm sure I'll hear it again...haha. Any variation, too!) I like being able to say that God doesn't give you more than you can take. Yeah, sometimes, it feels like a handful. Sometimes it feels like you can't handle it. But you can do all things through Christ who gives you strength. If you feel like you can't do it, you're probably not putting enough trust in God. At least, I know that's what happens to me. When I feel like I can go no further, it's really because I'm not trusting in the one Person I should be trusting.

But that's just some silly tangent that I've gone off on, now. I didn't know if I'd be able to write all this out in my journal. Typing goes much more quickly for me.

I hope everyone has a good night!